I started this site with the sole intention of focusing on my nerdy passions and creating an outlet where I can discuss the things I love. I’m still a fledging in the blogging game but this is something that I’ve attempted to adhere to with diligence. But this week, I just can’t do that. Sure, I have another post that I’m working on, but it just doesn’t feel right publishing it just yet.
So if you would spare me an exception, I’d really like to get this off my chest.
Too long have I sat idle behind a computer screen, lamenting the senseless deaths of so many people, trying in vain to understand why this was happening. It was easier to avoid the news all together instead of letting myself drown in the horridness of it all.
But I became part of the problem because I chose to cower away, to not think about what is going on in the world. It was an act of self-preservation because I didn’t know how to deal with it, even from afar. That was just an excuse and it’s no longer acceptable. Thinking that it’s never going to happen to me or anyone I know is no longer acceptable. Thinking that there is nothing I can do is no longer acceptable. Because the issue is bigger than me. It’s bigger than you. It is all encompassing. And something has to give, something has to change.
So I am now choosing to swallow past the lump in my throat, to overcome the anxiety that I rarely talk about, and commit myself to this cause in whatever way I can. I don’t know where to start, and honestly, I don’t even know what to do. All I do know is that I can no longer be silent.
I’m doing this for myself, as a biracial woman in America. I’m doing this for my nephews, so they don’t have to worry about such things as they get older. I’m doing this for my parents and grandparents, who lived through the civil rights movement. I’m doing this because it is what needs to be done.
There is so much more that can be, that needs to be said, but this is not the place for it.
I still have hope in humanity. I have an even greater hope that my generation can be the agents of change that are so sorely needed. It’s scary and it’s daunting. But together, with a million voices saying that we will no longer stand for this, I know that we can make a difference.