They say that the road to hell is paved with good intentions. And while that may be a bit extreme for the point I’m making, it is nevertheless a fairly accurate summation.
I have every good intention to use to these monthly objectives as stepping stones to completing larger, overarching goals. But when it gets to the end of the month I look back to see that not much progress was made. There is a disconnect somewhere, and until it is identified and corrected, I’m going to be like a hamster running on a wheel.
It was time for some reflection, to take some time to look back in order to be able to move forward. Finally, an epiphany began to take hold. You see, for the longest time I thought that the root of the problem was the inability to control myself when it came to certain things. After all, I will be the first to admit that while I am methodical, I am not above reacting on pure impulse at times. But then it began to down on me that the issue was two-fold. Yes, I needed to work on controlling my (bad) impulses. But I also need to hold myself more accountable. Making excuses and feeling sorry for myself will get me nowhere. By controlling myself, I can exit amazon.com before I buy the unnecessary <insert random purchase>. By controlling myself, I can turn down seconds during dinner at my parents’ house. By holding myself accountable, I can have enough respect for myself to do the right thing, whatever that may be. By holding myself accountable, I can make decisions that facilitate success in my life.
I’m only human, and a flawed one at that. I am not looking to cut out everything that is fun and delicious and wonderful and what makes being on this planet worthwhile. I’m not about that life. But there will be days where I indulge in some comfort food or a dessert. There will be days where I veg out on the couch with some Netflix instead of writing. But now, instead of wallowing in the guilt of having slipped up or using it as an excuse to slip up more, I need to use that as motivation to do better tomorrow, or with some control (see what I did there), not indulge too much.
That being said, with this new and improved mindset, I’ve decided to extend my September objectives into October, with some minor modifications.
- Practice mindful eating more actively. This isn’t changing. I’ve given myself the goal to lose 17 pounds by year-end and this is definitely a major player in accomplishing that
- Be more effective in time management.
- I’ve decided to participate in NaNoWriMo this November as a way to jumpstart the ideas I have for some short stories. While I’m not writing a novel at this point, I am still going to try and accomplish the 50,000 goal. That will give me plenty of material to work with and hopefully mold into a working story.
October is probably my favorite month of the year. The new chill in the air, the crunch of leaves beneath my feet, I find it all invigorating for mind and spirit. So I’m moving forward with rejuvenated perspective and steely determination. After a year of feeling unmotivated and apathetic, I have made it my mission to make up as much ground as possible these last three months.